lmao previous post was fucking corny.
haha. anyw nowadays i shouldnt and i wont bother much! :D
thats what i should do. no one will care.

Hi, here to talk crap again. real shit.
i dont know what to feel now, life dont have its motive.
i wonder how much do i mean to you actually.
on a second thought, i think i dont even mean anything to you :/
if only. if only.. although i know things will never be the same. and i would definitely be another guy down the street. can i even hope? i dont even know what to do. im lost. can i change back time, can i be a guy in love again?

all the same. it isnt only until now, that i know im just another guy.
why cant i just stop and let my feelings die off.
im just putting myself through all these shit again.
and i cant change anyth.
stupid motherfucking idiot. gotta learn to stop hoping high, and just treat her as another girl...
afterall im just another guy whom she'll prolly forget in time to come.
thats life..

feeling fucking fucked up now.
shouldnt have paid too much attention.
should have suppress my feeling before even..
my heart always seems like its sinking. idkwhy.
but fuck. nothing big actually happen yet i can be fucking depress?
what kind of logic is that seriously. i hate this thing called emotion.
its getting random at times. maybe im feeling this way, just because i got my hopes high.
this is just a result that i'll expect to see as long as i continue w/ what im doing.
im just a friend, im a nobody.
from the start it had been clear. im just a fucking friend.
shouldnt hope for anychances at all..
Should learn not to hope for texts or even chats. im just a loser.
and nothing can ever change that. IM FUCKING USELESS AND CHILDISH.
why cant i be fucking mature and have a sensible mindset and heart.

TOTHELOOOO

Heyyyyyyyyyy.
Apparently jaren got active on blog alr, lol.
and needed some help w layout and stuff, i came online/login to check some stuffz.
since im here like login, i guess imma post some stuff up too.
But yeah, got not much of an idea to chat or spam here.
So probably i'll just write some update for nowwwwwwwww.
Art : tough, but like im still slacking at colourscheme, going nowhere.
Eng : gotta check some goodphrase and compo out, but then im just tooo lazyyyyy.
Chi : getting from bad to worst. im fucking disappointed w myself, but what to do, if i dont work hard its obvious i'll get lousy result.. so yeah..
Maths : yay, today's math test seems like a breeze except for one question which consist of some weird answer and stuff. 0.05 cents ftw~

pretty much summarised, dont wanna talk about any other stuff really~
cause well, life will always be unfair and dumb.
so whats the point of sulking everyday hahaha..

2011. time just pass that quickly isnt it?
although its a new year, but it dont seems to affect me in a big way anyway.
life still goes on, regarding even if you're depress or fucked up or whatever you feel.
welllllll, i still think from time to time. hah.
hope that im able to give up totally, but it seems that i cant.
afterall its been so long, im still being an idiot thinking of chances hopes..
need to get on w/ life, concentrate on studies, and stop looking or even hoping anym.
sometimes i just hope things will go back to how it was. how it was..
nah i ought to stop.. guess im being tooooo sentimental in the morning ^^
just need to sleep soon, after uploading some vids and i should be prolly fine>?

Live your birthday happily!
:D